Chase – 8 Months
Chaser
Last week you hit the 8 month mark, and I know I have said it every month but WHERE did the time go. When did you stop being a baby and start growing into a toddler. Everyday it seems that another little piece of your baby-ness slips away. You no longer want to be held when you are sleeping, in fact you usually won’t go to sleep if you are being held. I’ve spent a lot of time in the past few weeks sneaking into your room at night to watch you sleep. You still look like my baby when you are curled up and sleeping.
You are so much like me when you sleep. You rarely fall asleep and stay that way, it takes several tries every night and a few rounds of music. You seem to have the same sleep twitches that I have and they frequently wake you up. You usually start the night swaddled in a blanket but you always manage to wiggle out of it in your tossing and turning. It never fails, I lay you in the middle of your crib every night and less than an hour later you wake up and when I go to investigate I find you stuck in a corner with your blanket stuck and binky lost. We go through this straightening out routine at least 3 or 4 times a night. I have absolutely *no* idea where you would get that from.
I’ve been prodding you for weeks now to start sitting up on your own and now that you’ve finally got the hang of it you have NO interest in anything but being on your tummy. Figures. You lay on your stomach and wiggle with all your might just trying to figure out how to move. You can spin in circles and occasionally you scoot backwards, which really just pisses you off because you end up further away from your toys. I figure you’ll be crawling by the time I write next months letter. However I was also sure that you would have teeth by now but alas you are still my little toothless wonder.
I’m going back to work today, just part time and only temporary for now, but I’m so nervous I could cry. I probably will cry when I drop you off at the sitter’s today. I know that this will be good for both of us, just like I know we need the money. I know that you will enjoy being around another little boy. I also know that spending a little time away from me will be good for you. Lately you cry whenever I walk away from you or leave you with someone else, even your dad. I’m sure the time apart will be good for both of us and I’m sure it will make me a better mom when we are together. I’m just afraid I’ll miss something big and I know it will make me sad the first time you don’t cry when I leave you.
Looks like this month there will be a lot of changes for both of us.
Love Mama
January 25th, 2010 at 1:13 pm
I went back to work part-time when Catie was about 8 or 9 months old too. It was both wonderful and crazy difficult. But overall, yeah, I do think that the time apart made me a better mom.
He is getting SO. BIG. Good grief. What a cutie.
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January 25th, 2010 at 2:36 pm
It’s always hard initially, but there are rewards too. Like the joy they show when you arrive to pick them up.
And it’s good social learning for him to have a playmate, and it’s only part time. I’m sure you’ll be fine!
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January 25th, 2010 at 7:40 pm
I. LOVE. HIM.
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January 25th, 2010 at 8:15 pm
and HE. LOVES. YOU. Also Gigi might have some competition, I was showing him pics of Annie today, heh.
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January 27th, 2010 at 11:07 am
OMG that first picture makes my uterus cry.
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January 27th, 2010 at 3:43 pm
Ummmm, you made me cry reading this. Good stuff. Boys are awesome. I have an 18 month old.
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